2024/05/18
Posted Tag: #Personal
Other Tags: #Linux, #Windows, #All
My first memory of what I know now that can be defined as intuition was when I was sixteen. Well before cell phones one of my first cousins called our house asking for me. He was two years older than I and his car had stopped running so he pulled off to the shoulder of the road. He could not restart it. He walked to a nearby house and called. Why he asked for me I have no idea. I had just gotten my unrestricted driver's license so I drove up to where he said he was and pulled to the shoulder with him. I popped the hood and I asked him to turn it over. The car was a Ford and they had the fuel filter screwed into the back of the carburetor. I removed the hose connected to it and unscrewed it from the carburetor. I then took the inlet side of it and beat it slightly against the asphalt. Some trash came out it so I screwed it back into the carburetor, connected the hose back and asked him to try it. The car started fine. My cousin asked me how did I know that? I responded that I did not know. Being sixteen I had no prior knowledge of car engines. Why I went straight to that and was right I had no idea. I just seemed the right thing to do so I did it. My life has been full of things like that.
My last birthday in the Navy my command gave me a birthday party in our shop and later yes a stripper in a restaurant off base. But the thing I still have is a length of dot matrix printed paper wishing me a happy birthday. It is signed by all the guys I worked with. I was also told everyone at my command had contributed to paying for the stripper. I still have pictures I was given somewhere. But of the four years I was there I never saw them do that for anyone else. The fact that they did that has always confused me until I realized later that I can read people. I have always did that. They did that because of who I am. The empathy in my regular dealings with people. It is very humbling.
I recently discovered that the definition of intuition sometimes includes empathy. That was a very light coming on moment for me. The definitions of intuition vary greatly because it really isn't understood but empathy is mentioned a lot. It is because that ability to read people and to grasp answers make empathy very easy. The one thing about empathy that is very painful is it can allow people to use you. It has happened to me a lot in my life. It upsets me because I can not figure out what allows a person to do this.
I wanted to talk about this because people have this but they ignore it. It is that gut feeling you have only for me is just knowing something. The thing I do is trust it. It took a long time for me to be able to name what it was. So now that I know I just want to spread it around. The fact that I want to spread it around is in itself part of it. Now some people look at this as related to a religious faith, particularly the empathy. That it is about a faith in God. It isn't but rather a faith in yourself. Isn't that what faith really is about anyway.
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